Yeah...NO.I don't think that you ''deserve'' to be in HTD or even wear the Hitman tag.In my opinion you're not ready yet.I think you should apply again when everything is ok with you.
ok....but plzz tell me what is wrong with me so i can improve my self
I'll tell you what's preventing me from voting positively (aside from me being inactive currently). It's your rule-breaking past. And what's worse, you're using that "my cousin played" excuse. That's my opinion.
Maybe if you prove yourself you've truly changed we might consider you for [HTD], but for now your chances are pretty slim.